While washing up coffee cups at work when I was 17, a colleague told me that school years are the best years of your life. I smiled and nodded. I hoped he was wrong. On the bus to school each morning, I sat with sweaty palms and a lump in my throat. My school practised exclusion, preached hostility, and stigmatised LGBTQ+ people. I went to a Catholic school, but it was one of many schools up and down the country, faith and non-faith, that don’t teach about LGBTQ+ identities in a positive light.
In 2020, my school updated its relationships and sex education (RSE) policy in line with government guidance. In a draft policy they included a clause that stated: “LGBT+ young people should feel included and recognised at school so that they are able to build safer, more informed relationships, and will have more access to support. We are also committed to an RSE that makes every pupil feel valued and included and is relevant to them. This means we are committed to an LGBT+ inclusive curriculum.”
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After consulting parents, this clause was removed – the only change to the entire policy. I was told by the headteacher that the school was not allowed to “promote” LGBTQ+ identities. A long string of incidents reflected this approach. The student pantomime was edited after rumours of “lesbian themes”, the publication of an article I wrote about the history of the Pride flag for the student paper was blocked, and a display about LGBTQ+ scientists was taken down due to “inappropriate content”.
Until year 11, I only learned about LGBTQ+ people in RE lessons, when we were taught about homosexuality alongside adultery, and gay rights were framed as a debate. I thought that coming out would be my most challenging queer experience, but existing in a hostile school environment was much harder.
I was always academic, setting my sights on going to Oxbridge at the ripe age of 11. When sixth form rolled around, I was focused and determined. But the active exclusion of people like me at my school became a distraction.
It was difficult to focus on my education in an environment where I felt so unhappy and so unwelcome. I missed lessons for meetings with members of the senior leadership team, spent countless hours preparing material to back up my arguments for inclusion, and wasted my precious last years at school fighting leadership for the right to be included.