Ever had the feeling you’re lost? The sat nav on your phone thinks you’re somewhere 500 miles away, you don’t recognise the buildings around you and nine times out of 10, you’re late to where you’re supposed to be.
It’s much the same if you’re like me and are forever losing something. The frantic search for a lost passport or keys I was sure I’d left on the side but are now nowhere to be found. That password that just won’t embed itself in my memory and slips into a black hole in my mind.
Whether it’s physically, emotionally or metaphorically, the reaction is the same. Helplessness, frustration, defeat.
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The flip side is the sheer euphoria when/if you find the thing you thought was lost forever. The satisfaction of recognising a place and realising where you are; the buzz of achieving that career step you’ve worked so hard for; finding your tribe; putting on that jacket you rarely wear and discovering those missing keys. It’s a fleeting high (and we’re all too often too much in a rush to notice it) but it’s there.
As an artist, I’ve spent 20 years exploring those emotional connections between loss and rediscovery. Be it bringing lost items into a new existence or reimagining lost spaces and building a new narrative through paint and imagination. I’ve even played with hiding artworks, setting them free in the hope that a fleeting high can be had by the lucky finder.