I am 27 years old and from Newham in London. I love singing and watching Disney movies. I have a mild learning disability, cerebral palsy and use an eye gaze commuter to communicate. My younger sister Ferdus is my best friend and my biggest advocate.
During the pandemic in 2020, when I was 22, I was taken into hospital due to complications related to a medical device. I was in lying in a hospital bed with my sister next to me in the room when the doctor came in and asked my sister to make plans for my end-of-life care. I was in hospital again in 2021 and this time the doctors asked if she wanted me to be resuscitated or not.
I could hear and understand both of these conversations, but the doctor did not ask me to be involved. I just had to sit and listen to a discussion about my future with no control – just because of my disability. It upsets me when I am ignored or excluded from my own healthcare plans, but to not even ask me if I wanted to live or die was beyond what I could have imagined.
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It has now been five years since Covid, this gives us a chance to reflect on the impact of a truly catastrophic time in all of our lives. But the pandemic had a particularly devastating impact on people with a learning disability – we died at significantly higher rates than the general population, as well as just struggling to access the basic health and care support we needed.
For me looking back on my personal experience, it reminds me of how people like me who have a learning disability were made to feel like second class citizens. Doctors ignored us and asked our loved ones if they would sign Do Not AttemptResuscitation notices (DNARs) simply because we had a learning disability.
Throughout my hospital stay during Covid they did not respect my communication needs and rights – staff frequently ignored me and disregarded my hospital passport (a crucial document detailing my care needs and preferences).